RANTING (hatred addition)

Big massive warning for very personal topics, for this there's going to be a big blank lot in this page just to give you time to think before reading !!

Some horrid ass takes (serious(will get me cancelled(will get me burned at the stake)))

I absolutely hate some homosexuals vro, more specific on genders. i let trans people pass well and through, they're cool, just don't deceive some dudes who are convinced you're an actual woman, dawg reveal that shit at the start, get that negative reaction and be with it so you DONT have problems down the line.
Gender fluidity, demi girls/boys are a different thing, and in all technicality i guess i am gender fluid due to letting anybody use any pronouns on me but damn these people make me despise my identity istg.
You cannot fully change your gender, it is called an identity for a reason. Reasons people make assumptions based on actual sex is due to it being actually,, true?? Like despite it all we still got shit hotwired into our brains. insert something in regards to my animals by stomach book breakdown rant in a discord server-gguys i can be hypocritical but i am very much part of the mentally ill bunch, if you don't fw me then you don't fw me that's legit all, just don't make it apparent and also hope we don't have mutual connections between anyone. but most the time people only see me as a cool artist that draws their characters upon glancing at them once.-Random non hatred thing but still a horrendous take but I like Nhad for some reason. Mainly more due to character to person correlation than actual character themself don't worry. I know well these bitches ain't gonna have gay sex in canon but me N and my boyfriend Thad moment blah blah blah
(I am never bringing up the ship around him nor even daring to attempt at a matching pfp; i like our stupid ocs more regardless)-i also feel kinkshamed in my own fucking spaces i hate this vro i'm facing judgement everywhere

Random unknown ass people

i got groomed when i was 12 by some dude in the osc, he had some mad fucking problems being like hypersexual all that stuff. He was around 17 vro and had my ass drawing porn and trying to be sewn at my hips (i did not like that). It explains much as to why I will stay a distant person and don't really like high maintenance people i suppose. not one to really wish stuff upon others but hope the dude got help since it's been a couple years now and glancing at the dms i haven't closed for the sake of remembering just incase, the man looks very different.-though on a more negative case i have some creature i met during my community entrance to the murder drones fandom, was chill at first but i guess once we started distancing they started hating me? i did press for answers in specific to why but alas i never got them. i cannot track down any problem i gave other than being a little retarded around them and in able to understand them. they had some understandable discomforts but then had some very difficult ones to go around.
along with that they had an unexplained name change as well which i just speculated to be due to memories regards to their old name, still never have any exact answers to that either.
legit all the problem i had with them is just lack of understanding due to them being inconspicuous.
lead to a parting in servers, may've made our friend groups disfigured.-aalso i think people tend to legitimately skim over the fact if you have beef with somebody i have a bigger attachment with i will not like that. as much i'd like to defend one since they are justifiable in their reasons i will still stick to the one that has priority in my eyes.

Fandoms

THE. MURDER. DRONES. PANIC. AU.
i question how the fuck this piece of shit got popular, i understand overly that "It's an alternate universe! It's not canon!" BUT OH MY GOD, MY COMFORT CHARACTER, MY SYN FOR SAKES, THE CHARACTER I WAS A COPING LINK OF FOR A LONG WHILE AND IT STILL LASTS TODAY. Serial Designation N. Why does he have some PERVERTED ASS GOONER ASS INNER CONSCIOUS GHOST IN THIS SHITTY AU???
Not to mention, although a personal preference very much, the art is convoluted and it's really disorientating to my eyes. My boyfriend sent me a few panels before it was a big thing in the fandom and they just,,, unnerved me. Like deadass he looks so sexual, his eyes don't scream panicked and hungered they scream "I'M BRICKED UP AND WANNA EAT YOU".
I'd like to mention NYX, the inner stuff of N or whatever in that au has such a really uninteresting design? I get it's simple because it takes up more after a spirit but dude he's just pink and always looks aroused too.-And in very specific, i do NOT fuck with uzi kins as too many have given me bad experiences and they have common tropes dawg. One was some manipulative person who sook attention mainly, if she didn't gain it you were seen as a nobody to her, and if you rightfully saw how bad she was she saw you as an enemy. Also to mention the girl was 12 and very much had multiple exes.
One was just overly a freak at times, she could not keep it to herself about some of her fantasies OUT IN GENERAL CHAT. overall felt embarrassing to be around as well and turned out to be some yandere type ahh person.
Last seemed a decent person, was occasionally corny and cringe, kept going out into song mid conversation (sending lyrics for no real reason other than i guess referencing) and had the common being pissy/scared when left alone or ignored. gal had a whole story and so many things to do but all she focused on was having people being active and if nobody was she'll just whine. something something, me no like chronically online people.
Those were just three main ones, i've had kins who repeat aspects of what's mentioned. But generally I just do not link up with Uzi's well.
Probably explains why I don't really like NUzi either despite it being canon. Just me, N syn no match with any Uzi.

call me shrimpo, fanny and or AM for the way i HATElast updated 21/11/2024